Wet Cold Noses

It’s almost over now

If you’ve followed my blog for a while then you’ll know that my 11-year-old pup Mackenzie has been living with cancer for the last two years. He was diagnosed in January 2009; there’s a mass on the roof of his mouth on his left side. Aside from a slight bump on his face, you wouldn’t know he was sick. He has not showed signs of discomfort or pain up until a few months ago. He must’ve eaten something hard that bumped his tumor the wrong way, making it painful to eat solid food. My brother, who is now his prime caregiver, switched him to homemade food which Mackie has enjoyed. It improved both his health and spirit. But as of Saturday night he quit eating again. My brother tells me that he won’t even take water.

Mackie was taken to the vet this morning for a check up. His vet of nearly 11 years probed his mouth to see what was happening. He said the tumor had grown, which is causing a lot of pain and discomfort. He’ll inject him with fluids and pain medication which should last about 24 hours. Within that time my brother is to try to get Mackie to take food and water, plus his other pain medication. If it works, then we’ll see how he progresses. Maybe it’ll pass like the last time he quit eating. If Mackie still doesn’t eat or drink water even with medication, then there really isn’t anything else that can be done. :’(  

Kenzie lives in the Missouri. I’m out here in LA. That’s about 1,500 of miles away. I’ve never wanted to be back home so bad in my life.

I know it’s almost over now. I can feel it. I just want to be there next to my dog when it’s time for him to make the transition to the next world. I’m not religious but I am spiritual. I know he won’t really be gone, his spirit just doesn’t need his body anymore. And when it’s my turn to move on, he’ll greet me with wet kisses. It’s still painful, especially being so far away. I don’t want to put that pain on my brother and mother, but I also don’t want Kenzie to be alone during that time. I looked into flights and it’s at least $600 for a round trip. Seeing as I’m between jobs I cannot afford to make the trip out. This hurts. It really does. There’s nothing I can do from here. We just have to wait and pray that Mackie’s in as little pain as possible. 

Please send good vibes, prayers to lessen whatever pain he may be in.

And if you have a dog, go hug him or her.